Rebirth- A new journey!!

Embarking upon a new way,
Leaving my past behind.
It is a bleak & windy day,
Whence this path before me unwinds.

Sepulchral doom beckons me,
And darkness paves the way.
To be or not to be,
Is the question, as they say.

Towering clouds upon me frown,
And the rains do fall.
Impossible to see further down,
And be sure of destiny’s call.

Unsure of what does await,
Gingerly this path I tread.
For the future is an unsure bet,
And I am hoping I do catch a thread.

That will lead me through this maze,
For even the lightning lighting up the sky,
Does so only to daze,
And leaves the road even darker by.

Unsure of the path ahead,
I look around for signs.
But in this night dark as dead,
There are no clear marked lines.

Uncertainty begins to grow,
Like thorn vines on the hedge.
And the seeds of doubt they sow,
My resolve hangs from the ledge.

A fear cold & vile,
Crawls up on my skin.
The voices of doubt do pile,
Enhancing the maddening din.

As my faith does fade,
Doubt raises its wall.
And my legs feel made of lead,
Suddenly weak, I fall.

On the thorns, and they do sting,
As voices ring in my head.
Yeah, and they too sing,
The chant of the living dead.

And a numbness creeps into my heart,
Unable to move, I lie.
In the mud and dirt,
A thousand chains I am held by.

Hopelessness lurks around,
Like a pack of hungry wolves.
Ready to pound me to the ground,
With their dirty hooves.

But then the booming voice,
Riding on the mighty gale.
Roars at me to keep my poise,
Urging me not to fail.

For this is my quest for glory,
I do need to keep strong.
Can't afford to get weary,
Allow them to lead me wrong.

And as I turn back the pages of my life,
I realise that it's nothing new.
Given that it was all a bloody strife,
I must rise as I always do.

Somewhere a rose blooms,
Its smell tingles my nose.
Driving away the glooms,
A new hope in me arose.

And the music of the rain,
Pulls me out of my trance.
Dispelling all the pain,
Leading me into a dance.

The desire again burns,
Deep within my heart.
And the tide of time turns,
Awaiting a rebirth.

Of faith- a talismanic fire,
On this journey new.
Burning away all thoughts dire,
And ensure that I stay true.

Regret.....

I stumble on down the bleak path, trying to keep regret at bay as the dark, sodden skies pour down on me. towering clouds frown down on me and lightning seems to rent the skies apart as my fever rises and the rain seems to burn into my skin like scalding knives. And then in that desolate road, I see a rose bud, at the exact moment in which it opens its arms wide to welcome the world with all its splendor. The raindrops landing lightly on the petals, then clinging on to it as it slowly slithers down its contour to drop off gently to the earth. The incredible beauty mesmerizes me and makes my heart miss a beat. A burning desire, an attempt to subsume my grief in the heavenly beauty fills my heart. The sweet fragrance of the rose mingles with the fresh aroma of the wet earth to create a unique smell that tingles my nose and numbs my senses, sending my feverish mind into a trance and driven by it, my feet turns towards the object of my desire. Disjointed images flash through my mind and a thousand emotions knock at once at the door of conscious thought, putting my mind into a turmoil. I seem to fall through an endless tunnel as the gale grows stronger around me and I am engulfed by a quagmire of memories. Like shards of glass off a broken mirror, faces and old mistakes sting me, making my heart  bleed. The dam of my resistance breaks and tears start to flow down my cheeks. The grief consumes me, sapping my already weakened body of strength. As my feet drags on, my knees suddenly buckle under my weight and I fall down. As I fall, I still reach out for my salvation, but I only manage to tear my flesh open on the thorns as the whole world goes black before my eyes.....