Waiting for the revival........

Letters I've written, never meaning to send,
Words said in jest, not meaning to offend.
Walls built in anger, myself to isolate,
Tears unspilled build up, my heart they suffocate.
The lightnings rent apart, the black velvet of the sky,
And my silent screams they echo, till  my throat bleeds dry
.My mistakes they haunt me, clawing at my innards,
And old memories scattered, like the mirror's broken shards.....
But downtrodden I won't be, miles I have to travel,
Cut and bleeding my feet be, mysteries to unravel.
And I'll push myself, to the edge of endurance,
Even if I don't find, a voice of sweet assurance.
But then oft the devil 'guises, as an angel's tears,
And our smiles they mask, our detestation and fears.
So I take up my own guard, the lonewolf wary,
Lashing out and snapping, to hide that I'm weary.
And I howl out my frustrations, at the bright, round moon,
And hear it whisper promises, of good things to come soon
.I listen without believing, for the jokes of fate are cruel,
And this bitter experience, the fire in me it fuels...
For lonely I stand, against the world if needs,
But stand strong I will, my self-esteem it feeds.
And I'll keep on walking, the consummate survivor,
Waiting for a turn in tides, waiting for the revival..........

Stay......... An ode to love!

Come ye wind, lift up my spirits again,

 For tonight, I'm gonna rejoice.

Come rain, burn away the pain,

off my feverish skin, I've made my choice.....

For too long have I been hiding,

Behind the mask, wearing a smile,

But now that you've come riding,

I'm gonna be me awhile......

Again, though forgotten I have how it felt to be me,

Buried it too deep, to stop the hurt,

But sing to me thunder, let me once again see,

The parts of myself, rise afresh off the dirt......

And I'll be me again, even though I might bleed,

Now that you're here, won't awhile you stay?

Stay, I ask you, not to give me what I need,

But stay, coz with you, I can finally see a way......

Of becoming whole again, broken as i am,

All sharpness and raw edges, cut your finger on me,

And rain redness on me, break open the dam,

Of my madness, let me howl and dance with glee.......

And you're all that I can see,

All the flame and burning desire,

Left smouldering in me,

Fuelling my soul's fire.......

So, rejoice with me tonight,

Let this night not be one for sorrow,

Coz for this love, I'm ready to fight,

Come whatever will on the 'morrow......

And for you I'll fall, a thousand times over,

Never to give up, come what may,

So, walk with me, and be my lover,

Coz in you, I've finally found a reason to stay.................

Emptiness-The flight of the beloved......

And room feels so empty tonight,
 A weight presses down on my heart.  
The eyes are once again caught by the light,
It stings, it burns, its glare does hurt....

Go, if you must, set off on your way,  
Spread your wings, your dreams go feed,  
I'll sit here in the shadows, they have so much more to say,
As the memories rip me apart, and into silence I bleed.....    

But call you back, I won't, you're a free soul,
Go find your calling, etch your name amongst the stars,  
For everything in life does have its role,
Maybe yours was to find me the strength to fight the wars,  

Against my own demons, and with you by my side,  
I learnt to see the dawn, after the darkest night.  
Made me believe, that no matter how rough the ride,  
At the end of the tunnel, there'll always be light.......  

But now that you are gone, the darkness presses in,  
And my silent screams they echo, off the empty walls,  
Reverberating, into a crescendo rises the maddening din,
within my head, yet not a single tear falls......

For you were my passion, all my heart I gave,
And now that you're gone, a void,
A hollow weight in my chest, that is all I have,
I am now spent, with my all I tried.....    

So go, as you must, and do not glance back,
To see, the silent pleas of my eyes,  
For go you must, and it won't hold you back,  
So leave not a sad smile, nor resort to petty lies.....

About coming back, we both know the truth,
No false promises, the point of no return.
And the memories they won't soothe,
From inside I'll burn.........

Maybe someday the storms will flash,  
And the mighty west wind arrive,  
To lift me off the ash....
Till then, let the pyre of passion thrive.........                 

Of grave diggings, afterglows, and dances of madness........

Dance, my angel, dance.... For you are a force of nature.... Dance, find yourself, and revel in your glory.... Dance through the stars and walk down the milky way..... Dance, and let my eyes drink in thy beauty like you are the ocean, and I a traveller lost in the desert....... Even though it will course red-hot through my veins, burning me up from within..... But, it's okay, I'm caught up in the heat of my passion anyway......So dance, create new worlds at your fancy, and tear old ones down at your whim....... Create, re-create the whole fiber of my being to suit your fantasy..... Let me bathe in the glow of your being, drinking in every single detail about you.... Getting close, closer, so close to my sun that every single drop of sweat clinging to your eyelashes are visible in a burst of HD colours..... Moving in close with reckless abandon....... Come, mould me up with the warmth of your heart, your smile's afterglow melting the deepest thaws, the most resilient steel of my heart....... And then, you move away, your whim forgotten..... Your fancy caught by some other trinket, you dance on towards your next plaything....... And I freeze, crystallizing in the sudden absence of your guiding inferno into all rawness and sharp edges...... Bleeding myself dry everytime I clench my fist to drive out the pain...... Drive out the voices inside my head....... And my silent screams echo on..... Mingling with the ringing notes of your being.... Mingling, perfectly in tune with the harmonic chaos of the memories to rip my world to shreds, tearing off the last vestiges of my sanity with absolute abandon...... Revelling in the redness flowing as I bleed myself dry on the memories frozen crystal-perfect in time....... I forget on some nights, that I'm supposed to have buried you..... Buried us....... And then we're grave robbing for the rest of the night.... Revelling with reckless abandon in the dance of the dead as I bleed out...... And my whole world finally goes black........ 

Inspiration: Infinite loop of "Saudade-Amethystium"............

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